It sounds dramatic I know – a diabetes disaster. Some people not in the know would probably just roll their eyes but those in the know like my close friends would still roll their eyes but then offer sympathy and tell me to pull my head out of my ass!
It is such a coincidence, or maybe not, but this week there was talk I was involved in around breaking down when it comes to being overwhelmed with diabetes…
I have to say that the last 2 months has been great with regards to relieving diabetes stress, the DIY artificial pancreas system (APS) has done a great job of managing my blood sugar in the background while I live my life as ‘normal’.
Well that was until a few days ago when I noticed my blood sugar was doing some out of the ordinary things, sustained highs followed by massive drops and this continued for 3 days, not the best time for me either as work was super busy and I needed that time to concentrate on getting stuff done, not concentrating on working out which of the umpteen factors were causing my blood sugar to be out of control.
Massive peaks and troughs all day, then huge resistance all night followed by massive drops again, I felt out of control and what was worse was that I could not put my finger on the problem.
I changed insulin infusion sets, changed insulin vials, did a clean installation of the artificial pancreas system, drank more water, I even stopped taking some of my vitamin supplements in the hope that maybe that was causing the issue…
Absolutely nothing changed!
After 3 days of trying not to focus on it and let what ever was going on run its course, it came to a head – the frustration I thought I was containing breached the lid and came out in the form of emotional distress…anger followed by sadness.
I crawled into my corner feeling sorry for myself, emotions flowing with no one but myself to console…but don’t feel sorry for me, I wanted you to know because when I came out of this sorry state my mind was clear on the actions needed to rectify the situation.
The artificial pancreas system was shutdown, the pump turned off, infusion set out and back to manual diabetes with good old syringes, it soon became clear that the problem wasn’t actually anything to do with the APS, but in fact the insulin I was using.
Long story short, the insulin was cactus but now I know the source of the trouble my mind is a bit more at ease as now I can base my management decisions around it until I get access to a fresh batch.
Pretty sure my exercise sessions this week when I fly home is going to involve a lot more drive than usual to flush whats left of the frustration…
Stay strong legends!